At this time I Select…… – The Weight of My Weight

When this mug was new, it stated At this time I Select Happiness. Happiness was on this fairly gold lettering. Nicely, I’ve continued to place this within the dishwasher, and the Happiness has worn off. Now every time I’ve espresso from this mug, I take into consideration what it’s I Select for myself for the day.

Yesterday I selected to Breathe, take into consideration our new grand child and get by means of the day.

New grand child?? Sure!!

Rockwell (7 lbs 6 oz and 20″ lengthy) was born Tuesday morning round 5:00 am. Mother and child are wholesome and so they might get to come back house tonight!

Daddy and Rocky…..

Grateful for Rockwell because it’s been a troublesome few days right here and all of us wanted some excellent news. That is child quantity two in our household born throughout Covid, so we missed out on that second within the hospital ready room pacing in nice anticipation for the newborn to be born, then the chance to be with mother and pop within the room and maintain that candy little man.

I considered that second all day yesterday. I considered all that’s lacking proper now.

Tess and Manuel drove in from Dallas on Monday. Whereas they have been driving right here, there was an hour by hour replace on how everybody was feeling since Christmas Eve didn’t go as deliberate. In some unspecified time in the future it turned clear that getting collectively was not going to occur and we canceled one more household get collectively.

So not solely did we’ve got to downsize our Christmas Eve on the final minute from 19 to 7, we needed to cancel our huge household get collectively scheduled for Tuesday evening. That’s the massive occasion for us. That’s the one the place all of us collect in the lounge and I go out 19 stockings that I spend the vast majority of December procuring to fill. Watching as every particular person pulls one merchandise at a day out of their stocking is my Christmas morning.

Christmas was cancelled.

It. Is. Carrying. On. Me.

I’m so joyful we have been in a position to all collect on the cabin in October and have a houseful for Thanksgiving. These steps backwards with Covid the final a number of days have introduced a lot disappointment and put me in an emotional funk.

The final two weeks felt off and I ponder if someplace in my thoughts, I knew it wasn’t going to occur. The 19 plastic luggage with names written in sharpie on them, nonetheless stay within the basement in a field as we attempt to resolve a intelligent method to give everybody their stuffed stockings.

At this time as I sip my espresso from this brightly coloured purple mug, I’ve to ask myself….

How will I select to spend at present?

We now have a wholesome new member of the family, Tess and Manuel are right here, and sooner or later at present and tomorrow we are going to get in a go to with my mother and pop.

Yesterday Mike was gone a lot of the day working and the three of us knew we’d be spending the day on the home.

Tess and Manuel determined to work on a puzzle and that began sport day.

When was the final time you performed Monopoly? The three of us agreed that we’d by no means performed as adults. After a 5 hour sport, we discovered so much, however might by no means play once more. lol

I used to be the primary one to bankrupt in Monopoly, so I opened my Trailer Home and started working.

I obtained exterior the final two days for lengthy walks and labored on filling my head with optimistic ideas. Being exterior and inhaling contemporary air did assist.

Surrounded by sweets now……I’ll freeze or trash something left at present.

Sorry for the downer publish.

At this time I Select Happiness. Somedays that takes a really aware effort.

“love the life you reside, dwell the life you like”